TWYH pgs 39-103

Before the discussion we had in class I really didn't think about the other causes of anxiety I would be dealing with while I was teaching. I've always thought about how am I going to get my students to be interested in me as a teacher while still learning. I always worried about if I would be able to teach the kids or if I would confuse them even more. After reading this semester of Erin's first year as a teacher I see that there are a lot more things going on then just whats happening in the classroom. I never thought about having to okay things in my lessons, or ask permission from the Department Head to do an activity with the kids. I never thought about what age level I was going to be put in to teaching. I have to admit if I was told that I had all freshman classes my first year as a teacher I would be a little... nervous. When I was teaching the Freshman classes during practicum I didn't mind it because I had a mentor teacher there helping me "control" the kids. From my experiences I have learned that some freshman like to walk all over the teacher as much as they can, almost like a four year old who knows that if he tells the babysitter, "well, mom and dad let me do it.." then they will get their way. I have a hard time with my classroom management skills so when I'm put into a situation like that I may have trouble. One other thing that I thought about while reading these chapters was about my support system. I need someone to "let it all out" to and that has always been my mom. Like Erin's dad my mom is the one I always go to advice for and if I'm having a bad day or what I think to be a bad day I always run to her. Sometimes she'll give me advice that I want to hear but sometimes she'll day "Steph, it's not that bad you'll live." I wonder as you get more and more into teaching if you still need that support system as much because when I'm 50 and still teaching my mom may not be there for me to "bitch" at and I'm sure my husband's not going to want to listen to it, so what am I going to do? (There's another anxiety I thought about).